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Saturday 19 March 2016

St. CUTHBERT'S

That midnight meditation was an impulsive endeavour
to engage with something infinitely out of reach.
I had expected impossibility, yet so avidly craved
that feasibility hinted at by Einstein's Theory
of Relativity. Also that night
Mars was in conjunction with Venus,
while opposing Saturn - a prospective time anomaly
according to my comprehension of both theories - the
proverbial red rag to an off-beat visionary like myself!
That conjunction filled me with excitement.
It was mainly the position of Venus
that fired my imagination.
For an amateur astrologer, it was
a true eureka moment - when absolutely anything was possible:
even Romeo and Juliet could have resurrected
to live happily ever after, well into old age.
Oh yes, that night the Astrological and Metaphysical systems
were in perfect harmony, forming a bridge
across the division of time and space.

Time tunnel:

Too much noise. Student voices reach deafening pitch
in a corridor of St. Cuthbert's College, Worksop.
Not now, but then:
1908, your final day there.
Dizziness. As if on a tilting deck of the Poseidon.
A silent Chaplin movie, blurred, jerky and out of sync.
Feeling sick. Now equalising. Still light though -
lighter than air, but feeling present. Then full, glorious clarity.

Suddenly -
                  fate must have decreed it -
                                                             suddenly you.

First glimpse close up, burned into the back
of my retinas - permanently etched into memory banks.
Less tall
than I'd imagined, but well-toned, athletic.
And those long, slender fingers
that would someday perform such miracles.
And your face, so hauntingly beautiful.
I see you there, clearer, more real
than in any of the subsequent years -
as if we both existed solely for that instant,
and time itself stood still:
the soft waves of your hair, that I so ached
to run my fingers through. That sensitive,
expressive mouth, and those soulful eyes,
deep-set and twinkling like stars
in an indigo sky - so vibrant and alive.
Yet I could sense a melancholy already in their depths. Perhaps
a premonition of tragedy in khaki
that only I had knowledge of then?
You completely knocked me out
with a vitality and optimism
that totally belied the horrors to come...


I remember very little
of the remainder of that night. Nothing
except an acute sense of separation
on returning to outer consciousness,
then my mesmerized observation
of your image that had followed me home.
And the discovery of the raised red welts
where you'd touched me
that branded my arm for the next week or so,
and my Soul, beneath them, forever.




I am taking a short break now, so will catch up with you all again in a week or so.

Until then...
have a fabulous weekend - and Happy Blogging!

xoxoxo


33 comments:

  1. ... thank u 4 stopping by, friend Y ... ur last line: "my soul beneath them" ... just about killed me ... cuz my soul is within them and maybe even above them ... ya ... smiles ... secrets are only secrets if they are kept as secrets ... smiles ... Love, cat.

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  2. Always a pleasure to visit you, my friend!
    Yes...all those secrets...that we strive so hard to hide...yet they almost always reveal themselves in the end, eh? *smiles*

    Lots of Love & Hugs xoxoxo

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  3. __Always "Y", you've written a deep thought-map, with many roads to follow.
    __See you on your return, I hope all is well with the recovery.

    secrets
    stoke a life's flames
    persona

    __Even if the secrets remain private and unknown, secrets are the shoes we wear, to help us choose -our- proper steps.
    _m

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    1. Oh thank you, Doug...your levels of perception are truly amazing...you always find the words that prove so elusive to me...:)

      Yes, thank you, the recovery is going well. There is still a little way to go yet...but here's hoping things will eventually be back to normal. :)

      Hope you had a great Easter! :))

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  4. This poem is really deep Ygraine and special !
    How are you doing ?? Well I love all you write.
    Send you hugs and love and take care !!
    xoxoxox

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    1. Thank you so much, dearest Gloria! That is really appreciated.:)
      We are doing quite well here, thank you. Do hope all is well with you and yours too?

      Sending Lots of Love & Hugs back xoxoxo

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  5. It is a very well-written, deftly-created poem.Thanks.

    Greetings from London.

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    1. Many thanks, CiL. So glad you enjoyed!

      Hope you escaped Storm Katie...we were lucky here - only some minor damage!

      Have a Great Day.:)

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  6. Mesmerized as usual by the scope and the depth of you writing.. Breathtaking story, feelings and images.
    Enjoy the break.

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    1. Oh thank you, Anthony...so much!

      Yes, it was good to escape for a short while:)

      Do hope you had a great Easter.:))

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  7. WOW!!! Very deep! So well written! Love the images! I hope you are well my friend! Talk soon! Hugs!

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    1. Oh thank you so much, Sweetie...you are so kind!:)

      Yes, I am well rested after my break away, thank you. The sun actually put in a brief appearance too! lol

      Have a brilliant day!

      Lots of Love xoxoxo

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  8. One of your deepest and most profound yet...impressive :)

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    1. So good to have you back, Keith. You have been really missed!
      So happy you enjoyed...and thank you so much.:))

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  9. Well planned, well written with fabulous imagery. I enjoyed it.

    Best wishes

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    1. So glad you enjoyed, Joseph!
      Thank you so much...

      Have a great day! :)

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  10. So well written, Ygraine! Sorry I missed your posts, I went through a deep depression for a month and am just getting back to being myself again...thank goodness. Warm hugs to you.

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  11. So well written, Ygraine! Sorry I missed your posts, I went through a deep depression for a month and am just getting back to being myself again...thank goodness. Warm hugs to you.

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    1. Dearest Linda...you haven't for a moment been far from my thoughts...and please remember - I am always here for you if ever you need me.
      Here's hoping you continue to get better and better with each passing day.

      Sending you much Love & Blessings xoxoxo

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    1. Many thanks, Deeps!
      I have returned rejuvenated...:)

      Have a great day!

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  13. Wow! a magic poem. I was entangled by your words.
    And I can say that I dream of a night like that.
    Happy Easter!

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    1. Oh wow...thank you so much, Ana!
      Your words mean so much.:)

      Hope you had a great Easter.:))

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  14. Boa tarde,profundo e sentido o que bem escreve com todos os pontos e virgulas.
    Pascoa feliz,
    AG

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    1. Many, many thanks, AG...I really appreciate that.:)

      Do hope you had a great Easter!

      A Hug :))

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  15. this is fantastic! Wow, i wanted to read more.

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    1. Gosh...thank you so much, Sandy!
      Really happy you liked this...:)

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  16. Wow, I enjoyed all the facets of this piece it was a magnificent journey! Fabulous writing Ygraine :)

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    1. Thank you so much, Rose!

      Really hoping all is good with you.:))

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  17. As usual, unique, thought-provoking words here Ygraine. Your mind is a beautiful thing!

    I hope you had a wonderful break and Easter time too.

    Lots of hugs and BFN, G

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    1. Oh thank you so much, Geraldine...that so SO appreciated!:)

      Hope you had a fabulous Easter too.

      Wishing you a magical weekend!

      Lots of Love xoxoxo

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