By the hapless uterus cruel fate took hold of me.
It twisted, it crippled, it tore out my Soul;
it rendered my world no longer whole.
I crumpled in it's grasp like a worn-out dress.
I stumbled and fell into a kind of hell
that held me fast in it's prison cell.
My life dropped out of consequence like a raindrop in the ocean:
hour stretched into year, and year into dismal eternity
that wiped out all hope of blissful maternity.
A marble gravestone still pins me by the heart.
It bears in deepest ebony pearl
your name, your name,
my precious baby girl.
On the anniversary of my daughter's passing...I still love you with all my heart ❤❤❤
It twisted, it crippled, it tore out my Soul;
it rendered my world no longer whole.
I crumpled in it's grasp like a worn-out dress.
I stumbled and fell into a kind of hell
that held me fast in it's prison cell.
My life dropped out of consequence like a raindrop in the ocean:
hour stretched into year, and year into dismal eternity
that wiped out all hope of blissful maternity.
A marble gravestone still pins me by the heart.
It bears in deepest ebony pearl
your name, your name,
my precious baby girl.
On the anniversary of my daughter's passing...I still love you with all my heart ❤❤❤
I'm so sorry. Hugs.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much.😊😊
DeleteHugs xxx
No one can understand the connection of a mother and her child...except another mother.
ReplyDeleteIt doesn't end when the cord has been cut.
I am so sorry my beautiful friend.
I am helpless to give you comfort.
I can sense your pain.
The weight that your heart carries.
I Care Deeply...All My Love and Hugs 💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗
My dearest Jan, your understanding and comforting truly means the world to me...thank you, from the depths of my heart.❤❤❤
DeleteI guess my hurting would make no sense, all these years later, to someone who has never experienced this kind of thing...but I know you do understand...and I am immeasurably grateful.😊😊
Dearest Jan...you are truly my rock.
All my love and hugs ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
How to untie the lump in the throat due to our losses? This pain that really takes something from us fiercely.
ReplyDeleteThey are stones that lead us to stumble, we live in hell day after day, they are intimate and idisoluble prisons.
The rains that fall from our eyes are many and only crystallize when we also die.
The saddest of the tombstones is really in our hearts, it is the ebony mourning that accompanies us in the depths of the soul.
Anyway, today is what I say, my sweet Ygraine.
Many kisses! And I repeat, you live in my heart. ♡
My dear friend Doug, I know you have been there too, in a similar experience...and we will never recover fully, can only hope we'll learn to live with the hurt.
DeleteI hope our pain will help us to grow stronger over time, well, they do say that time heals...only I'm not that convinced...😕
Thank you so, so much for your caring and support...I am truly grateful.😊😊
I hold you in my heart too...always.❤
Many Kisses xxx
I'm so sory...I will pray...
ReplyDeleteAww, you are so kind...my heartfelt thanks.😊😊
DeleteHugs xxx
Heartfelt hugs and oceans of caring are flowing your way. Today and every day.
ReplyDeleteOh thank you...so, so much. Your kind words are really precious to me.😊😊
DeleteI hope you are doing ok...and wish you a great weekend!
Love and hugs ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Keep spirit, still pray
ReplyDeleteThank you so much.😊😊🙏🙏
DeleteOh I am sorry to read this! I can't imagine the grief.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much. 😊😊
DeleteThe hurt never leaves...but you somehow learn to live with it...
Have a good weekend.
That is precisely the thought that has kept me going since I lost her. My Druidic belief...that nothing ever actually "dies" has been tested to the limit with this experience...but I do still have faith that she is not really gone forever.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for your kind words of wisdom...you have truly lifted my spirits today!😊😊
Have a great weekend!
As a mother, after reading this, I have tears in my eyes. I am so sorry for you. I love this poem, extremely powerful and moving, thank you do much for sharing this with us!
ReplyDeleteOh I am really sorry to make you cry...I guess I hadn't thought that this could have that effect on others when I published it.😕 So sorry...
DeleteBut thank you for your wonderful and understanding comment...it is truly precious to me.😊😊
Hugs xxx
The emotional imagery you express in the sadness is so gut wrenchingly wonderful. In spite of the sadness I so enjoy the amazing poetry here in your words.
ReplyDeleteOh I am so glad you enjoyed this, Anthony...somehow transforms the pain of this experience into something more positive!
DeleteThank you...so much!😊😊
I am teary as I reading this poem.
ReplyDeleteI lost my nephew when I was away and I still miss him terribly. I hope you are well.
Much love from me all the way from Malaysia.
Oh I am so sorry to hear of your nephew...these sad, sad things happen...and it's hard to understand the reasons why, isn't it? 😢
DeleteSending you all much love and hugs too! ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Like so many who have read your words before me … I too have tears in my eyes.
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing your poem and emotions here, I am thinking of you and sending big virtual hugs.
My good wishes too.
All the best Jan
Oh Jan, you are so kind...my most heartfelt thanks.
DeleteI am sorry to have made you sad though...
Those virtual hugs are very gratefully received!😊😊
Sending hugs back! xxx
oh so sad, I didn't know this about your daughter. this poem was so expressive of your pain.
ReplyDeleteI happen to believe anyone we have loved remains forever within our sphere whether physically or spiritually present. Doesn't make it any easier though when you desire that physical loving connection with her.
Thank you so much, Sandy...I really appreciate your kind words of comfort. 😊😊
DeleteYes, I believe that too. I suppose it is just that much harder to accept because she passed away at just two weeks old, and was my first child.
I have learned to live with it, but sometimes it is harder than others...
Have a great day!
Hugs xxx
I am concerned. I pray for you to be steadfast and always be given health, Ygraine.
ReplyDeleteGod blessing you.
Thank you so much, my friend...your kind words are really and truly appreciated.😊😊
DeleteHave a good day...and stay safe.🙏🙏
I didn't even imagine that you had a daughter who died. This causes a much greater pain than the departure of a father or mother. I hope your daughter's soul rests in peace.
ReplyDeleteThe poem is beautiful, although written by the mother's pain, being a very heartfelt tribute to your daughter.
Good weekend, dear Ygraine. A hug with great affection.
Kiss.
(PS: sorry for my english, very imperfect ...)
Jaime, my friend...I truly appreciate your beautiful words of comfort much more than you will ever know. Thank you...from my heart.😊😊
DeleteYes, a pain that never fully leaves, can only be learned to live with.
And your English certainly isn't imperfect, but is extremely good. I am hopeless at learning languages, so am in awe of you!😉
Have a fabulous weekend too...and I return your hugs😊😊
Kisses xxx
I am so sorry. It's a beautiful poem.
ReplyDeleteBig hugs.
Thank you so, so much, my friend...your hugs mean so much.😊😊
DeleteHave a great weekend...and stay safe.👍
I was very touched while reading your poem about your daughter ..
ReplyDeleteStay strong Ygraine ...
because your daughter will be sad if you are sad ..
Your daughter lives in your soul and your spirit
I hope you are always given health.
stay healthy..
stay safe there my friend..
Have a great day..
Greetings...
Thank you so much for your wonderful words of comfort...I really appreciate your caring and encouragement to keep believing that she is still with me in spirit.😊😊
DeleteI hope you are well, my friend...and wish you a lovely weekend.
Stay safe and happy.🙏🙏
Hugs xxx
tears falling from my eyes i am feeling motionless and speechless for while dearest Ygraine
ReplyDeleteOh i never knew you had most precious gift and then lost it my dear friend !
i shared sorrow of loosing my elder brother with my mom for years ,he died out of tb when i was little girl yet my mother mourn for him for her whole life
it is unforgettable trauma indeed for a mother dear Ygraine
but when i saw you have son and he loves you so much it makes pain lesser
please stay strong and positive ,she will be resting in peace if you are serene !
sending you all my love ,hugs and heartfelt best wishes!
Oh thank you so much, my dear dear friend!
DeleteYes, it is a pain that never goes away...but I am fortunate that I have a wonderful son, and that I truly believe that my precious daughter is still there, somewhere, in another dimension. I also believe that every experience we have to undergo in our lives is for a reason, is for our spiritual growth. That knowledge brings me peace, even in the most testing of times.😊
Thank you again, my beautiful friend...for your wonderful words of comfort...it means so much to me.😊😊
Sending you all my love and hugs too...and hoping you are staying safe and happy ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤