Saturday 7 February 2015


I wonder when you'll finally realize you've been chosen by Spirit?
Still, now, you appear to be the person I first met,
yet something has undeniably changed.
There is an air of expectancy about you.
I keep feeling my vocation is that of midwife,
that my sole purpose at this stage in my life
is to ease the passage of your re-birth, your transition into my world.
But you are not quite ready yet.
The strain of a protracted labour
is clearly visible in the gauntness of your features
and the dark circles beneath your eyes.

It is admirable how you've managed to cope:
the endless mood swings, the voices in your head -
misdiagnosed as schizophrenia - that make you
appear saintly one minute and then diabolic the next.
Which will you eventually become?
I sometimes fear the latter, when you are in the grip
of one of your self-harming frenzies:
as you bang your head repeatedly on the garden wall in frustration
until both it and the concrete path below
are splattered with blood.
Then you crawl, exhausted, into bed and sleep for days.

I'm often afraid you'll never recover from these assaults,
that your brain may have been gravely damaged
in those carnal vs spiritual battles for supremacy
over your Soul. Yet the Dolorous Blow
you inflict upon yourself seems to expiate
all perceived unworthiness.
You appear suddenly happy, immersing yourself
in everyday chores as if nothing has happened.
At those times, it is as if you've awoken
from a nightmare that you have no recollection of.
You hum an uplifting tune, smile at everyone
and throw lavish parties for the entire street.

But I know how it frightens you...
how what is trying to come through frightens you.
It's just too inconceivable for you to contemplate
and yet you want it with your entire being.
All your past lives have been preparing you for this.
And so the midwife patiently awaits
the dilation of the Veil's cervix,
eyes fixed on your aura, hands scanning chakras, ears
listening intently for those messages
that will soon inevitably come through.

I attempt to assuage your fears
by guiding your brain into deep meditation
until you achieve heightened awareness,
in preparation for the Spirit Guide
who is gradually descending into your sphere...
Now sudden blinding whiteness
floods through the barriers of the physical realm,
significantly raising your vibration.
Even I am thrown off balance,
am totally engulfed in pure Celestial Light.
The Spiritual waters have broken at last.

In this whiteout of merged dimensions -
me transfixed in it's power - I glimpse
your past lives, all of them simultaneously
as if watching a thousand movies at once.
But I am no casual observer. No such luck.
I feel them all...and none of them
have been happy-go-lucky fairy tales.
You have suffered for your calling -
really suffered - the excruciating torment
of the perpetual mourner, have lost
loved ones...over and over and over again.
And all those lost voices have been calling you until,
finally, the pain has become too much.
That last bereavement, in this lifetime,
has hit you hardest of all.
The loss of your first-born child is the ultimate catalyst...

I bring you out of your trance and you remember
it all, the never-ending rawness of it.
A haunting cry rises up from the depths of a Spirit
torn apart by grief. There is an irresistible longing
to override the finality of physical death.
I begin to wonder if it will ever end - it is
like a stylus caught in the groove
of an old scratched vinyl...
then your Spirit Guide slips in through the sound
to reunite you with all those you have lost.
Your muscles visibly relax. The tension drains
from your replaced by an expression of sheer bliss.
In awe, I watch as the Veil's birth canal gradually expands
into a broad Rainbow Path. And I smile.
My work is done for now.
A medium is born.


  1. its got to be scary for sure...when you know things and all the messages are trying to come through and you really don't understand what is happening....its good to have someone there to guide them through that process to help them...I bet it would make you think you were going crazy if you were alone...

  2. Believe me, Brian, it does!
    As a child, I frequently had these awareness's. Unfortunately, none of the adults in my life did, therefore couldn't understand. I was told I was never to mention such things. So from that moment on, I kept these experiences to myself.
    But I did wonder if I was going crazy...and it wasn't until I became an adult myself and read books on the subject, then met others like myself, that I realized I wasn't crazy at all - just very sensitive psychically!
    Thank you so much for reading this, Brian...I realize this subject isn't everyone's "cup of tea"...:)

  3. This is really amazing Ygraine!
    Scary but amazing! ANd you are really sensitive:) Is true!!

    1. Oh thank you so much, Gloria...your kind words really do encourage me immensely! :)

  4. Hello Ygraine,
    What a revelation to tell this to anyone. It must be difficult for you to live with it. But there are many different several types of psychic abilities and it's good for you to talk about.
    I believe in this all, because I have it also in very close quarters.
    Good luck.

    Big kiss, Marco

    1. Thank you so much for your understanding. It truly means so much to me...and to discover that you also have close experience of this type of subject is very reassuring.:)
      It isn't an easy subject to broach, especially publicly...but is a part of my life...of who I I do feel the need to write about it sometimes.
      I really am so grateful to you for bearing with me on thank you again... so much!

      A Hug and a Kiss.

  5. Ygraine, as I read more of your amazing poetry, I learn more about you.
    I applaud you for who you are and I also applaud you for this quite remarkable poem.
    I am quite in awe of you and your abilities as a physic!

    Have a wonderful weekend.

    Hugs and love

    1. Oh Margie...I am truly touched by your kind words. I was expecting a lot of criticism after posting this very personal piece because, as I said earlier, this subject isn't everyone's "cup of tea".
      I have to admit, though, sometimes it feels more like a curse than a know, unwittingly picking up others' pain? At those times, it would be nice to just be able to shut down!
      Thank you again, dear Margie. Your understanding means so much...:)

      Love & Hugs xxx

  6. For a long time I wished I could be a psychic but had a few experiences and decided I wasn't quite tough enough. As usual I became a gardener. My admiration of those who can deal with the thoughts of others, and communications from other planes of existence, is boundless.

    1. Oh Geo...I'm not tough at all. Some things I have experienced have really disturbed much so that I have wished I'd never been born with this "gift"...but then along comes an opportunity to help heal someone's grief...and I'm pulled firmly back onto my life path.
      I do believe this is my is just that sometimes it can be so challenging.
      Thank you so much, Geo...:)

  7. Your poem is fantastic, Ygraine, and I appreciate all you share. Thank you so much, and it is so nice that you and I have so much in common.

  8. Your poem is fantastic, Ygraine, and I appreciate all you share. Thank you so much, and it is so nice that you and I have so much in common.

    1. Oh thank you, Linda. You are so kind:)
      It really is amazing how much we have in common, isn't it?
      We are the same age, our fathers had similar experiences, and we like so many of the same things. Yes...amazing! :)

  9. I loved the way you layered up your poem, going from discovery to full emergence. Thanks, very revelatory.

    Greetings from London.

    1. Oh I so appreciate that, a confirmed Atheist, you could have chosen to write something quite scathing here...but instead, you have been really tolerant.
      And I thank you...from the heart...:)

  10. I read half or it. Then I can´t anymore. Please udnerstand. I´m npt coming back. Spirits has done nothing good to me. If they taught me anything, it is HATE! They split my brain in two!.
    You are welcome to visit my blog and to comment but I will not be back here.

    1. I do apologize if what I have written here has offended you...but this is a blog about my life experiences...and it wouldn't be complete if I had to censor it in any way. To do that would be like expressing only a part of who I am.
      I will miss your visits...and I wish you well :)

    2. no need to appologize. You are not responsible for my experiences. But they gave me a VERY hard time. :(

    3. I do feel for you...having had such a negative experience...but I do understand, because I have had those too...and they really affect you deeply.
      So I will apologize again for having triggered such adverse memories.
      I do occasionally include experiences like this one in my posts, because if I only posted the more positive ones, it would give the rather false impression that being psychic is all "happiness and roses" - which it certainly isn't!
      I do so hope you are feeling OK now...

  11. Never deny who you are, never stop writing your stories, you are after all the best drama writer even when it's true, I would trust you with my life, sensational writing xoxoxo

    1. Don't worry, Sweetie...I honestly don't believe I could if I tried! It is just who I am. I have to express what I feel...what I see, hear and perceive - or else what is the point of experiencing it??
      It is people like you, who are so kind, so supportive...that keep me going when things get tough...and I thank you with all my heart...

      Much Love & Hugs xoxoxo

  12. Amazing… I am humbled by every introspective verse. This story, the experience and understanding in your telling of this..

    1. Oh that is so kind...thank you so much, Anthony...:)

  13. This experience could be challenging to dwell with but it is really amazing. I am always amazed by the way you put up the words about yourself so much, so nicely.
    Sorry that I have missed some of your posts Ygraine. Hope you understand me. I am tired of undergoing this academic drills now. Hehe

    1. It is always really great to hear from you - I'm sure you know that, Dumcho...and you are always missed when you are busy elsewhere.
      Please don't worry about missing some of my posts...I am so appreciative of those times you do visit...
      Thank you so much:)

  14. Ygraine this may be your very best yet :)

    1. Oh wow...thank you, Keith...that means so much...:)

  15. and even though I'm not a psychic by a long shot my intuition is usually right one, and I thing most people are aware, that very soon the economy, the politics and nature are about to forge a storm unlike anything we've seen before that I feel through my bones.

    1. ...and you claim not to be psychic?!
      Sweetie...your psychic abilities probably way outreach mine.
      That feeling you mention...I feel it too...have for some time...and it really scares me.
      Don't know about you, but I feel helpless...

  16. Boa tarde, é uma revelação surpreendente, pessoalmente gostava de compreender o além e o dom de quem o sente.

    1. Sometimes it can be overwhelming...but it does have it's compensations. It all seems worthwhile when I can help others who need my help. Then, it begins to feel more like a gift rather than curse.
      Many thanks, AG :)

  17. The progression and details of this work is amazing.

  18. OMG. Although I also have some experiences with the 'other world' I still get scared hearing other stories. Interesting post, Ygraine.

  19. I know exactly what you mean...I have been having these sort of experiences for as long as I can remember and some still scare me. I suppose it's really that feeling of not having full control over what's happening, can be really disorientating at times.
    Many thanks, SuperLux :)

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  21. Thank you so much for these wise words, Victory...there is such truth here.
    It is so good to hear from you!

    Here's wishing you a Fabulous 2015 too!! xoxoxo


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