Thursday 8 November 2018


Dedicated to all those who suffered...more than we can ever imagine...

Remembrance was your greatest tormentor -
perhaps even your torturer. Now, all
your possessions, your wife, your life,
no longer held any meaning for you.
All had been superseded by the horror,
the sickening retro-visions
that came nightly.
This horror took on the hue of your bedroom walls
and concealed itself in the undulating folds
of the matching curtains.
You could taste the blood in your whiskey,
hear shells exploding in each passing car engine.
Body parts and lost faces lurked in their myriad lairs:
your candlewick bedspread,
your latticed windows, your carpet, your wardrobe.
You stared at these. You perceived the presences.
They hid in your army uniform -

that was their favourite place to lie in ambush.
When you dressed, you would pause halfway
to closely scrutinize jacket or trousers,
absolutely terrified of what may be secreted in the seams.
Khaki: fear personified
there in your hands -
the rising neurosis that threatened to choke you,
suddenly erupting into the uncontrollable shakes.
Your entire being turning to jelly.
Your wife, your son, your body, your life -
all dissolving into the carnage of the battlefield.
You could see it all, there
in the faded bloodstains ingrained in your uniform.
You knew the horror would never leave you.

So you took your own life.


  1. That had to of been extremely horrifying! Even though I wasn't in that era, there are still things that cause me much dismay that at times I can't let go that haunt my mind today!

  2. Me too, Lon...all so tragic...and I feel it deeply at this time of year especially.
    Thank you, my Friend.

    Have a great weekend.😊😊

  3. Powerful. Painful. And all too common even today.
    The cost we impose on our service people (and their families) is HUGE.
    This is beautifully written dear Ygraine. And how I wish it wasn't true.

    1. My wish too, EC...oh if only our wishes could be heard...
      Thank you so much...😊😊

      A hug xoxoxo

  4. As we are approaching Remembrance … your words are painful, powerful and perfect.

    All the best Jan

    1. Oh thank you, much!😊😊

      Have a great week xx

  5. Touching ,painful and so sensitive dear Ygraine!

    powerful painting of terror and horror that they had felt when they were sacrificing their lives for their people and land

    having dare to depart from life and longings is beyond just bravery

    1. Dearest Baili, oh thank you so much!
      Yes, I can't even begin to imagine such suffering...and saddest fact is...the lessons still haven't been learned...🙁

      Have an amazing day, my dear Friend!

      Much love and hugs xoxoxo

  6. Deep and unsettling. An understanding here so creatively imagined to express the experiences from such horror.

    1. What makes it worse is the fact that the lessons still haven't been learned. Nothing is worth the loss of life, especially on that scale. Each Remembrance Day I ask myself "why?" Unfortunately there is no answer...and that is what scares me the most.
      Many thanks!☺☺

  7. That poem is brilliantly written
    but really sad.


    1. Thank you much!

      Wishing you a great day!😊😊

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  9. Unspeakable horror, leading to unspeakable horror, leading to a final unspeakable horror.
    My tears are real.
    Ygraine, your words have captured this terrible reality, beautifully... xx

    1. Oh thank you, Dale...I so appreciate that!
      My apologies for making you cry, though...but you aren't alone in that. Just writing this, I could see it all in my mind's eye...and it really hurt.😥

      Thank you again, dear Friend...xoxoxo

  10. So sad and so true!!!
    You have captured everything in your words!!
    Sending you big hugs!!

    1. Oh Sweetie, thank you so much!!😊😊
      Here's hoping you're having a brilliant day!

      Much love and hugs xoxoxo

  11. the war always horrifying...and ..end with painful.

    have a great day

    1. ...and the saddest thing is...what is it all for??
      Thank you so much, Tanza...much appreciated!

      Have a fabulous weekend.:))

  12. That had to of been extremely horrifying! Even though I wasn't in that era, there are still things that cause me much dismay that at times I can't let go that haunt my mind today! sewing factory , sewing of ladies suits , sewing expert , sewing factory near me , lawn suits , pakistani lawn suits , pakistani lawn , buy pakistani lawn suits online , pakistani lawn suits online , pakistani lawn suits online sale


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