Sunday 11 April 2021


A poem for today...


The rain's been worse than ever this winter,
the river spewing out onto the floodplain
and into too many front doors. It feels uneasy,
like living with an unexploded time bomb,

too precarious. The canal's banks
are lined with barges, whose owners 
are somewhere else. Even the tow path,
usually packed with joggers, cyclists

and dog walkers, lies silent and deserted.
It's quite eerie here in the drizzly mist. There is
a sense of dereliction. And I wish, like
the summer kayakers, to be elsewhere too.


An excess of knocks has left me paranoid -
although some men, it seems,
are drawn to that quirkiness in me,

at least for the short term. Loss
precipitates a descent into desperation - that state
which leads only to the next blunder

involving over-dependency. Emotional intelligence
gives way to fanatically searching 
in the most inappropriate places

for a kind of idyllic love
that could never exist in reality -
until that burning need

inside me drives yet another
substitute away. Mere resemblance
will never be enough. I see that now.


I cherish memories of that last summer beside the canal.
Cool shade, beneath trees reflected
in the still water below: another, reversed world.
It seemed our happiness would never end. 
Such joy to be canoing there with you.

We existed in pure bliss. All day the sun
beat down and butterflies fluttered
around us. Rowing requires effort in the heat,
you have to be prepared to sweat.
Now, the canal is too poignant. A memorial to us.


In the dead of night, his arms
never soothe the hurt. The moon

enchants, but only the sun
sustains life. Now, the mornings

are a vanished lover. Cold emptiness,
a Dear Jane note on a pillow. Tears

are a dripping tap. I crave
some permanence, but I know

nothing except the pain: the flood
and it's brutal destruction.


I'll think of you when summer returns
and the floods have dried up. I'll be
canoeing on the canal again, only
this time alone. Stopping off

as we always used to, at the pub,
I'll sip white wine and listen
to your favourite song. It'll hurt,
God knows, it will. When you died,

I tried to replace you, to fill again
the void you left. You were, are, my sunlight;
my self-esteem. Without you
I am less than nothing...

But they're all telling me
that I have to go on living, that I
am worth something in my own right.
Oh I know they mean well, but

how can I possibly move on
with such a gaping, weeping hole
where my heart used to be?


  1. Very sad and brought tears to my eyes, but so beautiful!

    1. Aww, thank you so much!😊😊
      This was inspired by the pandemic and it's tragic aftermath...
      Stay safe, dear friend.
      Hugs xxx

  2. Heartrending. And true for far too many.
    You truly are a wordsmith dear friend.

    1. Aww, so heartfelt thanks, dearest Sue!😊😊

      Sending you much love and hugs, always ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

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    1. Thank you so much for your visit!😊😊

  4. I love poem what a nice and Mustafa emotional poem... thanks for your sharing...

  5. Wonderful. Have so missed your wonderful prose and the window allowing sharing of such memories.
    So glad you are back. Missed.

    1. Aww, thank you so much, Anthony...and so happy you enjoyed!😊😊
      I have sorely missed visiting you too...

  6. I saw you wrote above that this wonderful poem was inspired by the pandemic. i'm in awe of your writing, wow.

    1. Oh you are so kind, dear Sandy...thank you so much!😊😊

      Hope your day is a happy one!

      Hugs xxx

  7. a unique ,intense and highly sensitive poem dear Ygraine

    i felt like swimming within the flow of your mesmerizing expressions and i did not want to stop though i struck in to the gusts of enormous pain yet your narration has powerful grip on senses !
    wishing you all the health,peace and happiness in this world my amazingly talented friend!

    1. Dearest Baili, oh I am so happy you enjoyed this...and thank you, with all my heart!!😊😊
      Wishing you all those same blessings my dear friend,
      with all my love and hugs ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

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    1. Oh thank you so much Lon, my good friend... my appreciation is huge!😊😊
      Take care and have a fabulous day...x

  9. Bom dia minha querida amiga Ygraine, obrigado por nos trazer esse lindo poema.

    1. Oh thank you so much, Luiz. I really appreciate that!😊😊
      Have a great day! x

  10. There is a feeling of sadness when reading this poem, but it is also beautiful thanks to the series of words that you compose.

    I'm glad, isee you back to actively writing on the blog, my dear friend YGraine.
    Take care.

    A hug πŸ™πŸ€—

    1. Oh thank you my friend, so much! Really happy you enjoyed 😊😊
      Yes, I had to return to blogging...or else my sanity would've suffered!! Lol
      It's so good give back in touch!!
      You have been so missed...
      Stay safe, my friend.πŸ™πŸ™

      A hug x

    2. Sqma-sama, dear friend of YGraine. I am happy that you seem to be excited about writing back on the blog. I give support so that you continue to be creative and bring out your creative ideas and writing talents.

      A hug ����

    3. My writing is my lifeline, particularly in these uncertain times, guess it keeps me sane!!πŸ˜‰ Lol
      I am so appreciative of your support, my friend...thank you so much!😊😊
      A hug πŸ€—

  11. Oh Giannis, you have made me feel so very most heartfelt thanks.😊😊
    I really hope all is good with you...and that you are having a great day!

  12. So nice to see and read this poem from you.

    You have an amazing gift with words, and the story you tell.
    We are there experiencing the love, the hurt, the sensitivity.
    Wonderful, thank you.

    Take care of yourself and I hope your name appears at the top of the waiting list soon.

    My good wishes.

    All the best Jan

    1. Aww, thank much!😊😊
      It truly means so much to know that you enjoy my scribblings, as much as I enjoy composing them!!
      In these uncertain times, my writing just about keeps me sane!πŸ˜‰πŸ˜‚

      Have a lovely weekend...and stay safe, my friends!

      Hugs xxx

  13. Stunningly beautiful,my dearest soul sister.
    Why is it that death is never satisfied?
    Why does death have the power to take true love and turn it into a nightmare for the surviving partner.
    You are a remarkable and talented writer. Your words come from the heart, from life and very emotional feelings.

    Hugs and Much Love, My Beautiful Soul Sister...Always~

    1. Dearest Jan, oh my heartfelt are so kind!😊😊
      Witnessing all the grief and heartache around me, I just had to get it down in writing. I know it sounds crazy, but as I wrote, I felt all the pain personally...almost as if I were writing about my own life. I feel such sorrow for all those lost lives...

      Thank you again, my dearest Jan!😊😊

      Sending you all my love and hugs ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

  14. every word in this poem that you write is me feeling blue..

    very glad know you comeback write in this blog Dear...because for a long time i didn't see your update

    hugs :)


  15. Oh thank you so, so much, dear friend!😊😊
    I have missed you too...just health issues have been and are continuing to be a problem...lots of hospital visits etc.πŸ™„
    I am back for the moment though, and really enjoy being here!

    Have a great weekend, and stay safe...πŸ™πŸ™

    Hugs xxx

  16. precious friend Ygraine i am always touched by your warm and comforting comments on my posts .

    i am sorry that because of my current medication i don't feel much active to reply comments but it is so hard to stay silent when you speak in such sweet way my blessed friend!

    when you called me a sister you never had it made me cry because i do have sister and a brother and i loved them from the bottom of my soul but i never was able to be their sister as their standards are different for this kinship unfortunately
    thank you so much for being so kind and sweet dear Ygraine ,i will never forget this till my last breath!

    1. My dearest, dearest friend...I honestly feel as if I have known you all my life, and you are so very precious to me. The distance between us and the cultural and religious differences are totally irrelevant...I sense a kinship that goes far deeper than any of those things. I regard you as my Sister in Spirit.😊😊
      Take care and stay safe, my dear, dear Baili...

      Sending you all my love and hugs, always ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

  17. The heart can regenerate, you just have to wish that the hole disappears or, at least, decreases in size ...
    A large poem, of size and quality. Congratulations on your talent.
    Good weekend, dear friend Ygraine.
    Kisses xxx.

    1. Indeed I like to believe it can, my dear friend!
      Oh thank you,, so much. Your kind words of encouragement are always so very much appreciated!😊😊

      Wishing you a fabulous weekend too!

      Kisses xxx

  18. You are such a talented beautiful soul! Your words speaking of so much! Love, hurt! I hope you are well! Big Hugs!

    1. Aww, thank you so much, Sweetie...I so appreciate that!😊😊
      Still on the hospital waiting list, but staying positiveπŸ˜‰
      Do hope you are doing ok!

      Big Hugs back xxx


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