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Thursday, 16 September 2021

A 90's RAVER at 3am

An abandoned warehouse, beat deafening, coloured lights flashing,
her brain in overdrive.
Departing in her lycra gear, utterly bushed
from eight hours of non-stop raving. Outside
the street lamps are unsteady, dancing crazily.
The sidewalk rolls and ripples beneath her feet.
As usual, she throws up: curry, wine,
and a hash of cocktails slapped on the asphalt.
Why is she leaving alone again? Tears well up.
Tonight, she'd hoped, someone would be her rock.

In the taxi, inching through
the still busy streets of Chelsea,
a torrent of thoughts, mostly unwelcome.
Rebellion takes over.
This is her life!
Eighteen is an age for fun, not for hard work -
that can come later. Much later.
Her parents are wrong.
She is not accountant material.
It really is time she left home.

That place has become a tomb. Suffocating.
She is interred in it, feels like the living dead, yet
fear of the unknown seriously holds her back.
Such a dilemma! Hard boozing
has become her ally.
It delays the the inevitable, makes life easier to endure.
How she envies her brother,
a successful artist, living his life his way
with no strings attached -
in total freedom and with no pressure to prove himself.

How wonderful to be free of parental domination
and be left alone to make his own choices!
She, on the other hand, is made to feel beholden:
the dutiful daughter, expected to follow
in Daddy's footsteps - someone to proudly parade
before envious colleagues. His carbon copy.
But, this morning, there is change in the air.
Today, she will begin
the life she has always longed for.
Today, she will tell them exactly how she feels.

The taxi draws to a halt. The house is lit up
and she's aware they're waiting up. As usual!
Today, she won't accept the lecture with downcast eyes.
The alcohol in her blood empowering her,
she enters by the front door. Their faces
forewarn of what is to come.
She's been dominated by control freaks for too long.
Their eyes are flashing with anger. There is no consideration
for her wishes, her feelings. She observes
the hard faces, fuelled by one-upmanship...
                                                                               for the last ever time.


Four more days of holiday, followed by two hospital appointments, then hopefully back to some semblance of normality!😉
Thank you so much for your patience...and your kind support 😊😊


28 comments:

  1. Enjoyed. Brings back memories of now so long ago.
    Take care.

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  2. Boa tarde minha querida. Obrigado pela matéria. Aproveito a oportunidade de lhe desejar muita saúde.

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  3. Greetings from Turkey:) take care...

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  4. I sooooo hope that she can finally break free. As I hope you can break free of the medical mayhem. Hugs dear friend.

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  5. Thank you, as always I enjoyed your words :)

    Enjoy the last days of your holiday, the Autumn sun in recent days has been so welcome.

    Sending positive vibes and lots of good wishes for your forthcoming hospital appointments.

    All the best Jan

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  6. Espero que te haya ido bien en las vacaciones y estés mejor. Ella será libre de sus padres pero luego se arrepentirá la vida no es solo una fiesta. Te mando un beso

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  7. Ygraine MY GOOD FRIEND, that story got me reflecting back on the numerous times I've been lectured to, to the point that I had no choice but to flee from the pain they inflicted on me with that same type of gaze and their hatred disapproval!

    Ygraine, I can't emphasize enough how much I desire for you to be completely well!

    Even though I've never seen you in person, your friendship means a great deal to me!

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  8. In fact, these are two Poems, which compose a single Poem. However, the way out is the reversal: the reversal of the paper, the reversal of the Poem and finally the reconstruction of the Poem. Also, the belief in the beauty that exists in your face.

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  9. what a powerful poem dearest Ygraine !

    i felt i was watching this happening before my eyes oh you are master of expressions my amazing friend !
    i think each teenager can relate to her emotions so well :)
    my heartfelt best wishes for you and tons of healing energy sending on your way!
    hugs and blessings!

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  10. The 90s: best decade ever.

    Best of luck with your visits and recovery.

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  11. Parties and alcohol are a problem of youth that parents, the most conscientious, follow with apprehension and suffering.
    A poem that focuses on a generation, but that can be transferred to the current one.
    Excellent, I really liked your poem.
    I hope you are already well.
    Good week, dear friend Ygraine.
    Kisses.

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  12. Loved it. Hope you're enjoying your holiday and taking good care.
    Amalia
    xo

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  13. wow this is one great story ... reminds me of me although i wasn't a raver, but definitely a 60s/70s rebel. Hope you are feeling better and wellness is your best friend!

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  14. To me this is a sad poem. This young woman, I wonder if she ever wished she could go back and erase entire days. Did she ever see the wisdom of her captors?

    "Rebellion takes over.
    This is her life!
    Eighteen is an age for fun, not for hard work"

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  15. Such an emotional story! I hope it works out for her in the end really! :)

    Hope your week is going well :)

    Away From The Blue

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  16. How are you doing my beautiful friend?

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  17. Thinking of you ...

    All the best Jan

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  18. What a gorgeous poem. And so evocative. I hope you're well, dear. :-)

    Greetings from London.

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  20. hey dear Ygraine
    thinking of you my friend with heart filled with prays and best wishes ???

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