You're here again,
inside my head when I'm trying to sleep.
You're here again,
smashing my confidence on a level deep.
Harsh words echoing around my brain
'til I feel like stepping in front of a train.
You're here again,
tearing me apart layer by layer.
You're here again,
as always the central player.
Bruising, belittling, crushing self-esteem
because I failed to live up to your dream.
You're here again,
shouting, criticising, putting me down.
You're here again,
ensuring that in tears I finally drown.
Oh why am I here if I'm worth so little?
You are so cruel and my ego so brittle.
You're here again,
reminding me of how flawed I am.
You're here again,
insinuating what a failure I am.
You insult and wound with every word
and yet keep me caged like a helpless bird.
You're here again,
only this time I'm finally closing my ears.
You're here again,
but you've no longer power over all my fears.
Oh I'm sorry, Inner Voice, that I've cramped your style,
but now let me be me, without being on trial.
Written on World Suicide Prevention Day...with deepest compassion.
inside my head when I'm trying to sleep.
You're here again,
smashing my confidence on a level deep.
Harsh words echoing around my brain
'til I feel like stepping in front of a train.
You're here again,
tearing me apart layer by layer.
You're here again,
as always the central player.
Bruising, belittling, crushing self-esteem
because I failed to live up to your dream.
You're here again,
shouting, criticising, putting me down.
You're here again,
ensuring that in tears I finally drown.
Oh why am I here if I'm worth so little?
You are so cruel and my ego so brittle.
You're here again,
reminding me of how flawed I am.
You're here again,
insinuating what a failure I am.
You insult and wound with every word
and yet keep me caged like a helpless bird.
You're here again,
only this time I'm finally closing my ears.
You're here again,
but you've no longer power over all my fears.
Oh I'm sorry, Inner Voice, that I've cramped your style,
but now let me be me, without being on trial.
Written on World Suicide Prevention Day...with deepest compassion.
Ygraine, my good friend, I can relate to a lot that has been written in this post of yours! There have multiple times in my life that I've heard such a voice trying to rip me apart with worry, fears, and even telling me I'm absolutely good for nothing, plus bringing up the wrongs I've done in my past and still do today! Now when these voices enter in, I've created a counterattack against them, I tell myself, DON'T THINK, and my mind becomes blank to such obstacles! This DON'T THINK, has helped me immensely!
ReplyDeleteI wish you much peace and happiness my good friend within every moment you're in!
Oh Lon, my Friend, I am so sorry that you've been there too.🙁
DeleteIt is happening to so many people, that I can't help asking the question, "why?" It is so sad.
Your saying "DON'T THINK" is a fantastic remedy, because it is a taking back of your personal power.
I only wish I were mentally strong enough to do that too...but you have inspired me to give it my best shot!
Thank you so much...😊😊
Goodness! Yes! 'World Suicide Day Prevention Day'.
ReplyDeletehttps://www.nspa.org.uk/home/our-work/world-suicide-prevention-day-2019/
I will send this on to my daughter, she has been
a fully qualified Psychiatrist, for the past 8yrs,
and 5yrs ago, set her up in her own clinic...She
currently has 43 clients, 11 of which are young students.
So the issue of suicide, covers a wide range of ages,
reported daily in the written media, and the visual
media, very young people as well as the elderly are
committing this sad act...!
Just yesterday..it was reported that a 11yrs old girl,
being bullied on line, because she was fat, hung herself
in her bedroom...! :o(.
"Period" "Nuff Said"....
Gosh, yes, all these people who are suffering such emotional pain...and many of them so young.🙁
DeleteYour daughter is doing such a worthwhile job...you must be so proud of her. There is clearly a world wide mental health crisis occurring...
Thank you so much, Willie...for your understanding. It is so appreciated.😊😊
Have a great day!
Very good post 😊 thanks for your sharing 😊
ReplyDeleteThank you so much...and for your visit!😊😊
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Ygraine,
ReplyDeleteI'm here again too ...
But not in your head when you try to sleep ...
I'm here in your head, with you wide awake, to tell you how much I appreciate the way you write beautiful poems!
Good weekend!
Kisses !!!
Oh WOW...that is SO appreciated...thank you so much!😊😊
DeleteWishing you a fabulous weekend too!
Kisses!!
Wow,another beautiful poem full of compassion! What an important day abd subject it js for us to remember to always be there for those saddest ones. You are so talented! ☺
ReplyDeleteAww...you are so kind, Natalia...thank you so much!😊😊
DeleteHave just returned from your blog...really enjoyed!😊😊
ReplyDeleteAm following you now...
That inner-voice can be friend or foe.
ReplyDeleteit can encourage one or it can destroy one.
Here is where the heart and the soul must be strong.
To have the determination and the will to face one's fears and fight back and live...
You are so amazing my beautiful friend...you are so talented, so filled with emotions~
Big Hugs and Much Love
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Dearest Jan...such wise words...yes, the choice is ultimately up to us how we interpret our experiences, isn't it?
DeleteThank you, so, so much!😊😊
Have a fabulous weekend, my wonderful Friend!!
Much love and hugs ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Bellissima poesia.
ReplyDeleteBuona serata
Aww...thank you so much!😊😊
DeleteWishing you a super weekend!
Al yours poema are amazing and touch me Yfeaine! hugs !!
ReplyDeleteMany thanks, dear Gloria...you are so kind!😊😊
DeleteMuch love and hugs ❤❤❤❤❤❤
Dear, dear Ygraine. Thank you. Those voices (such loud insistent voices) live in my head too. And have done for as long as I can remember. I do hope you have stifled yours (and can share the secret). Huge hugs.
ReplyDeleteOh thank you, my dear friend...for your understanding...and for your precious friendship. Both truly mean the world to me.
DeleteHow I wish I could stifle them...can only manage to do so for short periods...then the wretched things overpower me again!
Like you, mine seem to have been there forever...even at five years old, I remember being overwhelmed by them, so I guess there's not much hope of banishing them forever.😕
Hopefully, though, we can both eventually find a way to ignore their negative messages...well, that is my hope for the future...
Sending you much love and comforting hugs ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Wow! This poem is a revelation, Ygraine!
ReplyDeleteOh you are so kind!
DeleteThank you, Ana...so much!!😊😊
I can certainly relate to those inner voices. You're too fat, you are not pretty anymore. ETC. Thanks for sharing another awesome poem.
ReplyDeleteDear Mary...it seems we aren't as alone as we sometimes feel with this. Just be the "human condition" or something similar, I guess...we think too much!
DeleteThank you so much...xxx
My sincere compliments on your excellent, life-affirming poem.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Geo...my sincerest appreciation!😊😊
DeleteOh dear Ygraine thank you so much for mentioning bellow
ReplyDeletethis was scary to read such painful circumstances
for while it seemed it is me from past when i felt caged but than Lord was their to release me
you can be a GREAT psychiatrist as you feel other's pain so deeply and present such an impressive and extraordinarily way !
this is powerfully compacted poem my friend!
i am still in trauma of withered brain !
last line ends it with hope and strength of positivity :)
lots of love and blessings to you my talented ygraine ! hugs!
Dearest Baili...oh you are so kind, and so precious a friend. And I can't bear to think of you suffering too.
DeleteBut perhaps we were meant to suffer these things...and to learn to rise above them...and you have been a real inspiration to me!
Oh thank you so very much!!😊😊
Lots of love and hugs ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Oh WOW...thank you...so, so much!
ReplyDeleteI really appreciate your encouraging words...😊😊
Have a fabulous weekend!
Oh thank you so much!😊😊
ReplyDeleteHave a fabulous day xxx
Wonderful poem and message.. An experience no one should endure.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Anthony...so much.😊😊
DeleteI totally agree. If only no one had to suffer like this...
Great post!
ReplyDeleteI love your blog so much!
Following you from now :)
I will be very happy if you follow me back :)
Have a nice day!
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Oh WOW...thank you so much!😊😊
DeleteWill come and visit you in a few minutes...xxx
What a great poem with an excellent message.
ReplyDeleteAll the best Jan
Many thanks, Jan...I really appreciate that!😊😊
DeleteHave a super day xxx
the inner voice can be a terrorist - love this - you've expressed it well.
ReplyDeleteA terrorist indeed, Sandy!
DeleteIn a split second, it can destroy a life.
Oh thank you so much...your kind words mean so much.😊😊
Hugs xxx
I feel this deeply.
ReplyDeleteAww, thank you, Rue...so much!😊😊
DeleteEstupendo post!
ReplyDeleteFeliz día! ♡♡♡
Oh wow, thank you...I so appreciate that!😊😊
DeleteBig Hugs ❤❤❤
Yes! You are a beautiful soul! Never forget that! Big Hugs!
ReplyDeleteOh Sweetie, you are so kind...my most heartfelt thanks!!
DeleteSending lots of love and hugs back ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤