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Friday 26 June 2020

YOUR NAME

By the hapless uterus cruel fate took hold of me.
It twisted, it crippled, it tore out my Soul;
it rendered my world no longer whole.

I crumpled in it's grasp like a worn-out dress.
I stumbled and fell into a kind of hell
that held me fast in it's prison cell.

My life dropped out of consequence like a raindrop in the ocean:
hour stretched into year, and year into dismal eternity
that wiped out all hope of blissful maternity.

A marble gravestone still pins me by the heart.
It bears in deepest ebony pearl
your name, your name,
                                  my precious baby girl.

On the anniversary of my daughter's passing...I still love you with all my heart ❤❤❤

35 comments:

  1. No one can understand the connection of a mother and her child...except another mother.
    It doesn't end when the cord has been cut.
    I am so sorry my beautiful friend.
    I am helpless to give you comfort.
    I can sense your pain.
    The weight that your heart carries.

    I Care Deeply...All My Love and Hugs 💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗

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    1. My dearest Jan, your understanding and comforting truly means the world to me...thank you, from the depths of my heart.❤❤❤
      I guess my hurting would make no sense, all these years later, to someone who has never experienced this kind of thing...but I know you do understand...and I am immeasurably grateful.😊😊
      Dearest Jan...you are truly my rock.

      All my love and hugs ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

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  2. How to untie the lump in the throat due to our losses? This pain that really takes something from us fiercely.
    They are stones that lead us to stumble, we live in hell day after day, they are intimate and idisoluble prisons.
    The rains that fall from our eyes are many and only crystallize when we also die.
    The saddest of the tombstones is really in our hearts, it is the ebony mourning that accompanies us in the depths of the soul.
    Anyway, today is what I say, my sweet Ygraine.
    Many kisses! And I repeat, you live in my heart. ♡

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    1. My dear friend Doug, I know you have been there too, in a similar experience...and we will never recover fully, can only hope we'll learn to live with the hurt.
      I hope our pain will help us to grow stronger over time, well, they do say that time heals...only I'm not that convinced...😕
      Thank you so, so much for your caring and support...I am truly grateful.😊😊
      I hold you in my heart too...always.❤

      Many Kisses xxx

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    1. Aww, you are so kind...my heartfelt thanks.😊😊

      Hugs xxx

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  4. Heartfelt hugs and oceans of caring are flowing your way. Today and every day.

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    1. Oh thank you...so, so much. Your kind words are really precious to me.😊😊
      I hope you are doing ok...and wish you a great weekend!

      Love and hugs ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

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  5. Oh I am sorry to read this! I can't imagine the grief.

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    1. Thank you so much. 😊😊
      The hurt never leaves...but you somehow learn to live with it...

      Have a good weekend.

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  6. That is precisely the thought that has kept me going since I lost her. My Druidic belief...that nothing ever actually "dies" has been tested to the limit with this experience...but I do still have faith that she is not really gone forever.
    Thank you so much for your kind words of wisdom...you have truly lifted my spirits today!😊😊

    Have a great weekend!

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  7. As a mother, after reading this, I have tears in my eyes. I am so sorry for you. I love this poem, extremely powerful and moving, thank you do much for sharing this with us!

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    1. Oh I am really sorry to make you cry...I guess I hadn't thought that this could have that effect on others when I published it.😕 So sorry...
      But thank you for your wonderful and understanding comment...it is truly precious to me.😊😊

      Hugs xxx

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  8. The emotional imagery you express in the sadness is so gut wrenchingly wonderful. In spite of the sadness I so enjoy the amazing poetry here in your words.

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    1. Oh I am so glad you enjoyed this, Anthony...somehow transforms the pain of this experience into something more positive!
      Thank you...so much!😊😊

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  9. I am teary as I reading this poem.
    I lost my nephew when I was away and I still miss him terribly. I hope you are well.

    Much love from me all the way from Malaysia.

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    1. Oh I am so sorry to hear of your nephew...these sad, sad things happen...and it's hard to understand the reasons why, isn't it? 😢
      Sending you all much love and hugs too! ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

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  10. Like so many who have read your words before me … I too have tears in my eyes.

    Thank you for sharing your poem and emotions here, I am thinking of you and sending big virtual hugs.
    My good wishes too.

    All the best Jan

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    1. Oh Jan, you are so kind...my most heartfelt thanks.
      I am sorry to have made you sad though...
      Those virtual hugs are very gratefully received!😊😊

      Sending hugs back! xxx

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  11. oh so sad, I didn't know this about your daughter. this poem was so expressive of your pain.

    I happen to believe anyone we have loved remains forever within our sphere whether physically or spiritually present. Doesn't make it any easier though when you desire that physical loving connection with her.

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    1. Thank you so much, Sandy...I really appreciate your kind words of comfort. 😊😊
      Yes, I believe that too. I suppose it is just that much harder to accept because she passed away at just two weeks old, and was my first child.
      I have learned to live with it, but sometimes it is harder than others...

      Have a great day!

      Hugs xxx

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  12. I am concerned. I pray for you to be steadfast and always be given health, Ygraine.

    God blessing you.

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    1. Thank you so much, my friend...your kind words are really and truly appreciated.😊😊

      Have a good day...and stay safe.🙏🙏

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  13. I didn't even imagine that you had a daughter who died. This causes a much greater pain than the departure of a father or mother. I hope your daughter's soul rests in peace.
    The poem is beautiful, although written by the mother's pain, being a very heartfelt tribute to your daughter.
    Good weekend, dear Ygraine. A hug with great affection.
    Kiss.
    (PS: sorry for my english, very imperfect ...)

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    1. Jaime, my friend...I truly appreciate your beautiful words of comfort much more than you will ever know. Thank you...from my heart.😊😊
      Yes, a pain that never fully leaves, can only be learned to live with.
      And your English certainly isn't imperfect, but is extremely good. I am hopeless at learning languages, so am in awe of you!😉

      Have a fabulous weekend too...and I return your hugs😊😊

      Kisses xxx

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  14. I am so sorry. It's a beautiful poem.

    Big hugs.

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    1. Thank you so, so much, my friend...your hugs mean so much.😊😊

      Have a great weekend...and stay safe.👍

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  15. I was very touched while reading your poem about your daughter ..

    Stay strong Ygraine ...
    because your daughter will be sad if you are sad ..
    Your daughter lives in your soul and your spirit

    I hope you are always given health.

    stay healthy..
    stay safe there my friend..

    Have a great day..

    Greetings...

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    1. Thank you so much for your wonderful words of comfort...I really appreciate your caring and encouragement to keep believing that she is still with me in spirit.😊😊
      I hope you are well, my friend...and wish you a lovely weekend.
      Stay safe and happy.🙏🙏

      Hugs xxx

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  16. tears falling from my eyes i am feeling motionless and speechless for while dearest Ygraine

    Oh i never knew you had most precious gift and then lost it my dear friend !
    i shared sorrow of loosing my elder brother with my mom for years ,he died out of tb when i was little girl yet my mother mourn for him for her whole life

    it is unforgettable trauma indeed for a mother dear Ygraine
    but when i saw you have son and he loves you so much it makes pain lesser
    please stay strong and positive ,she will be resting in peace if you are serene !
    sending you all my love ,hugs and heartfelt best wishes!

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    1. Oh thank you so much, my dear dear friend!
      Yes, it is a pain that never goes away...but I am fortunate that I have a wonderful son, and that I truly believe that my precious daughter is still there, somewhere, in another dimension. I also believe that every experience we have to undergo in our lives is for a reason, is for our spiritual growth. That knowledge brings me peace, even in the most testing of times.😊
      Thank you again, my beautiful friend...for your wonderful words of comfort...it means so much to me.😊😊

      Sending you all my love and hugs too...and hoping you are staying safe and happy ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

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