Thursday 28 February 2019


My child never sat her exams,
she didn't have time.
You can't count two weeks as a lifetime.
There were no birthday boat trips in June,
nor Christmas presents in December.
She never slept in the pink bedroom with the nursery rhyme lamp
and Disney curtains that never opened.

No terrorist atrocity has marred my life.
There's been no news coverage, no public outcry.
Fate's attacks are deviously executed, are underhand and utterly devastating.
They leave no visible scars.
It's all on the inside - the damage, the agony, the loneliness.
And for those like me there can be no full recovery.

But there was a laburnum tree weighed down with blossoms,
and speedwell blooms spread over the entire garden.
They awaited her arrival with a joyful anticipation
that even a lingering sense of foreboding failed to subdue.
I picked some of each to press for her,
pretty blues and yellows to frame in a card.
I would give it to her when she turned eighteen,
when the danger had long passed I thought,
that heavily pregnant me, who had
just purchased cot, high chair and baby clothes.
That much younger me, with heart still intact.


  1. Oh my. This is so powerful. Brought tears to my eyes. So moving. Bless you.

    1. Oh thank you, much!
      I guess it helps to write about it sometimes...sorry it is so sad a subject. And your kind words mean such a lot to me.😊😊

      Love and hugs ❤❤❤

  2. What a wonderful poem and epic story of understanding only truly understood by those who have experienced such a loss.

    1. Thank you, Anthony. As I said to Mary, it is therapeutic to write it all down periodically...sort of get it out of my head.
      So sorry to burden you with it though...but thank you for your much.😊😊

  3. What love ly and touched dear Ygraine ! amazing! xoxoxo

    1. Dear heartfelt thanks.😊😊

      Lots of love xxx

  4. So powerful and so moving.

    … as always my good wishes to you.

    All the best Jan

    1. Many thanks, Jan...for reading this, and for your kind wishes.😊😊

      Big Hugs xxx

  5. Beautifully written and so very touching.
    My heart weeps for her 💔

    Big Hugs and Much Love ❤❤❤

    1. Dearest Jan...oh thank you...from the depths of my heart!
      All of you are always in my thoughts...

      With much love and hugs ❤❤❤

  6. overwhelmingly powerful and made my eyes teary dear Ygraine!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    the level of depth and sensitivity displayed in your poetry touch the heart so strongly and deeply !

    it is rare and sublime!

    melancholy that gripped my soul right now

    just want to hug you my precious talented friend!

    please stay strong and positive ,you are remarkable!!!

  7. Dearest Baili, you are so, so, kind...oh thank you, with all my heart!😊😊
    Such a precious friend, you always lift my spirits and help me to stay positive...

    All my love and hugs ❤❤❤

  8. I see this through a veil of tears.
    I will not say I understand, as I truly cannot imagine the grief of losing a child from this life. I have three healthy young adults of my own, and they remain the world to me. However, I do know the grief of losing a child, as my second born (I have given birth to four) was was given to by my brother and his wife, who were unable to have children of their own. But, it is a story of love.
    Blessings to you and the memory of your daughter, as not all has been lost when the love is remembered, and shared xxxx

    1. Oh Dale...what a truly beautiful thing to have done, to have given your child to someone who was unable to have one of her own.I feel so humbled...such big-hearted kindness...brings a tear to my eyes. Truly!
      And thank you so much for your kind blessings...they are so deeply appreciated!😊😊

      Much love and hugs ❤❤❤

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    1. Oh thank you, very much!😊😊

      Much love and hugs ❤❤❤

  10. Blessings to you Ygraine! This was a very powerful write! You moved me deeply!! I have never lost a child, but I will never have children either. Big Hugs!

    1. Oh Sweetie, I'm SO sorry...had no idea you will never have children. I do hope it is out of choice though.
      Thank you so much for your kind words...they truly mean the world to me!:))

      All my love & hugs xoxoxo

  11. oh...i got chills reading this - it's all there - what u must have felt like your writing is amazingly expressive and just touches one so deep.

  12. Oh thank you for your kindness and understanding, Sandy. It is so very much appreciated!😊😊

    Big Hugs xxx

  13. What a wonderful poem and epic story of understanding only truly understood by those who have experienced such a loss.
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